I am an asshole.

Like crap from an ass.
Well that is how i felt today.
Stressed. Overwork. Underpaid.

I practically lost my own mind and did the same shitty things to my dearest again.
We got into another argument. And i will not disclose what actually happen.
I feel like crap now.
I do not feel happy (fucking obviously).

I rather take my motorcycle license and make it my death bed if i ever do that again.
Reason i put it here in my blog is to remember what i set out to do.
And i have to see it though. Stop this nonsense that i have been trashing out.
And fucking sort myself out before i break anymore feelings.

I suck and i want to die.

Why am i like this? I am loosing my sanity.

Down with the useless club.

Tsk. Useless.
Everything last minute and then expect a lot from Us.
We can barely move our MC and they still disrespect that we cannot be mobilize quickly enough due to our part-time jobs and other commitments.

To helicon,
Helicon is suppose to be a Side show.
Not a managing committee.
Why not?
Because you do not even respect the IGs.
Ask yourselves why Write, Speak, Photo and Cheer are unhappy with you buttheads.
Tsk.
The Day when you look at IGs that make up Helicon with respect needed and not just a source of resource, they will respond to you accordingly.
Without US, there is no Helicon.
Please Remember, we make up Helicon. And We are NOT below helicon.

Wake up la.


PS* I sound like the old LKY who still earns money warming up a useless sit. Which btw, i really do not like. That includes his always smiling son.

Super irritated

Somehow i am frustrated over a lot of things.
A number of people's mood is totally not in sync.

I do not want to give up this given opportunity.
And, does anyone care to save him?
And, does anyone want to listen to what i want?


If no.. the world is a good place to get lost in all over again.

I doubt anyone reads my blog anymore and has become my last saying spot.
So ya, if anyone chance on this blog.
Better look into the person who is next to you and really ask,
"Are you ok? Do you need to say anything that is hurting you?"

These little pieces of thoughtfulness will allow a person to recover.
Believe me. But, i just lost the believe in myself because no one believe in me anymore.

Emotional

I am being very emotional.
I need someone to really talk to
Anyone?
I got so many things to say

I get super worked up with little things
I get moody with the slightest change
I am not myself
I want to go to east coast and sit under the stars
who wants to go with me?

Mental toughness

First and foremost, i will not apologize for not writing in this blog for like.... 2 months.... lazy la.

Few updates, M1 is chasing me. I hate them.
For those who do not know, i am still working out a new company.
So if i don't turn up for any friends union or soccer.. i am stressing myself to get this up..
For those who thinks i am unstable mentally.. I am.
I want to play soccer.. Badly..
I want to have undisturbed 36hr sleep.

I will update more later...
Pictures included...
My significant other said im to se-te-ressed.. okok nites