-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
I am here, still wondering what i want to do in the future. I am in doubt regarding my studies now. And i do mean BIG doubt. I am really losing interest in all my A level subjects, hockey, soccer and myself. I got a failing ankle, sore brain and a lost mind. For short, I am losing my footing in reality.
I just cant help thinking that i am unable to get through this 'reality' of society. Where policies, biasness, prejudice and discrimination is all over. I myself, can safely say that i need a hard kick in the arse to move because i am lazy to the absolute core if it does not hit my interest. Looking at my rate i am going, i can hardly make it the year-end promotion examinations. I am studying as accordingly to the topics given. I will certainly hope I will get through to next year.
My parents had left me to the sharks now, time for me to make my own move. I have to motivate myself, to push on. Question now lies in 'Whats my target university?', 'What major should i take?', 'How long will it take?' and 'Can i handle it?'. I am getting a very little support or rather guidance. I need someone to pour this ladden weight on my shoulders. But who?
Aite, i am having a bad headache right now. so, Ta!
Saturday, July 31, 2004
Favi Song!
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Final Answer
I want love
To carry me through
All the moments, I'd kindly undo
Locked away
So I can feel safe
Now that I'm down on my knees, begging for change
Look down at the water
Before I jump in
To find I was sinking fast, in all that might have been
Chorus:
What I need now is an honest answer, to make things better
You can see now my hands are tied, and I surrender
So I'll wait here for your final answer, your final answer
Is there love without hate
Is there pleasure without pain?
I have seen all my mistakes
I cast you out, but now, I want you back
So light me again, cause my heart is turning black
Chorus
Remember the night you wore that dress
It flowed through our lips
Drink after drink and kiss after kiss
I'm still holding on, day after day
Don't run away
I want love to carry me through
Can you tell me what I'm supposed to do
Chorus
Final Answer
I want love
To carry me through
All the moments, I'd kindly undo
Locked away
So I can feel safe
Now that I'm down on my knees, begging for change
Look down at the water
Before I jump in
To find I was sinking fast, in all that might have been
Chorus:
What I need now is an honest answer, to make things better
You can see now my hands are tied, and I surrender
So I'll wait here for your final answer, your final answer
Is there love without hate
Is there pleasure without pain?
I have seen all my mistakes
I cast you out, but now, I want you back
So light me again, cause my heart is turning black
Chorus
Remember the night you wore that dress
It flowed through our lips
Drink after drink and kiss after kiss
I'm still holding on, day after day
Don't run away
I want love to carry me through
Can you tell me what I'm supposed to do
Chorus
Agenda For Today
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Ah.. Love the saturday mornings.. Calm, cool air supressed my mental tension.. ~ah~ HAhah.. I am bloody hungry! damnit. Well.. This maybe crap but i may be having some eatin disorder.. 1 Min i was damn hungry, aft i start eatin, i feel so full. I didnt even consume half of the plate... v crappy.
Today's agenda, get my econs crap at skool, my md and STUDY! I dun wana fail the CT. It will be another embressment. Eee.. I must get econs nailed to my head before moving on to HIstory and Literature. Hope i can get it done. ~Sigh~
Ah.. Love the saturday mornings.. Calm, cool air supressed my mental tension.. ~ah~ HAhah.. I am bloody hungry! damnit. Well.. This maybe crap but i may be having some eatin disorder.. 1 Min i was damn hungry, aft i start eatin, i feel so full. I didnt even consume half of the plate... v crappy.
Today's agenda, get my econs crap at skool, my md and STUDY! I dun wana fail the CT. It will be another embressment. Eee.. I must get econs nailed to my head before moving on to HIstory and Literature. Hope i can get it done. ~Sigh~
Friday, July 30, 2004
At school... No Where else for the day..
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Haiz.. Now in the bloody IT room wait for the crew to move to the canteen for our break.. as in EAT!. Crap.. Aidil havent even defer his NS. WOW.. haha.. Ahphat next to me is sufin friendster for some breakin peeps... Haiz.. today is gonna be a long day... to make it worst the GAY is behind me... ~runaway~
Haiz.. Now in the bloody IT room wait for the crew to move to the canteen for our break.. as in EAT!. Crap.. Aidil havent even defer his NS. WOW.. haha.. Ahphat next to me is sufin friendster for some breakin peeps... Haiz.. today is gonna be a long day... to make it worst the GAY is behind me... ~runaway~
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
Damn day.. and the day of damned
No tag top... Erg!
Argh! Damnit! I screwed up my right arm... As in do too many head and hand stands.. Sheesh.. When Saufi did the strechin of my arm, Boy it hurts... I got some variations of freeze! Kewl! ahahah..
Down to early in the morn, was supposed to be late But, reached too damn early... crappy... y? Mi took taxi.! wEE! Day at skool? Got it down good, but kinda lost at econs.. haiz..
Now, mi tired. Mi wana sleep. So. TA!
Argh! Damnit! I screwed up my right arm... As in do too many head and hand stands.. Sheesh.. When Saufi did the strechin of my arm, Boy it hurts... I got some variations of freeze! Kewl! ahahah..
Down to early in the morn, was supposed to be late But, reached too damn early... crappy... y? Mi took taxi.! wEE! Day at skool? Got it down good, but kinda lost at econs.. haiz..
Now, mi tired. Mi wana sleep. So. TA!
Sunday, July 25, 2004
Late night/Early morning
Haizz.. No top tag.. Baka^2
A sentence. Cant sleep, too woried, dun ask y. or rather i will tell you why. 1stly, Happi 18th Bdae Syg! I love ya lots and dun get too stressed up. Very worried abt you gettin so stressed up.
I got so many things to say and just dont know how to say them. Kinda crappy though. My mind is constantly on something but its like so many for me to name. One of it is worring for hannah.
The other, i just started to realise that i really need to think where exactly i want to do in the future. I really have veryy low intrest in my current tertiary education. I just want to do what i really like, eg Multi media designs or being a computer engineer... My dream career; being a teacher, needs alot of high level education which i feel inferior to. The rate i am learning history and other A lvl subjects is damn scary. That entirely reflects to the magnitute of things to come in degree level. O.o In other words, i am just scared. Need to talk to a teacher or something, or maybe just talk to Sayang...I am as lost as i am rite now.
Thats abt it.. there is alot of crap i wana type down but kinda not in a gd mood to do so. Ta.
A sentence. Cant sleep, too woried, dun ask y. or rather i will tell you why. 1stly, Happi 18th Bdae Syg! I love ya lots and dun get too stressed up. Very worried abt you gettin so stressed up.
I got so many things to say and just dont know how to say them. Kinda crappy though. My mind is constantly on something but its like so many for me to name. One of it is worring for hannah.
The other, i just started to realise that i really need to think where exactly i want to do in the future. I really have veryy low intrest in my current tertiary education. I just want to do what i really like, eg Multi media designs or being a computer engineer... My dream career; being a teacher, needs alot of high level education which i feel inferior to. The rate i am learning history and other A lvl subjects is damn scary. That entirely reflects to the magnitute of things to come in degree level. O.o In other words, i am just scared. Need to talk to a teacher or something, or maybe just talk to Sayang...I am as lost as i am rite now.
Thats abt it.. there is alot of crap i wana type down but kinda not in a gd mood to do so. Ta.
Friday, July 23, 2004
Small update..
Well.. again no top tag... Haiz..
Hello again to all my friends i am glad you came to play, our fun in learning never ends, heres what we did today!
Hahha... I just got home.. Got this pain in the heart. Y you ask, hmm.. I DID BLOODY BADLY FOR MY DEBATES. I sucko lotzy! hahha.. I got a tummyache and my points were all over the place. Haiz... Short update for now, i got some things to settle. Like my room, messy liao.
Hello again to all my friends i am glad you came to play, our fun in learning never ends, heres what we did today!
Hahha... I just got home.. Got this pain in the heart. Y you ask, hmm.. I DID BLOODY BADLY FOR MY DEBATES. I sucko lotzy! hahha.. I got a tummyache and my points were all over the place. Haiz... Short update for now, i got some things to settle. Like my room, messy liao.
Thursday, July 22, 2004
Bad start... nice ending..
Weird... no top tag... hmm..
Well, i start the day in a bloody wrong way. Got too mant thoughts in my mind that kinda LAME! (hafiz pe) ahhaha... Then the day just gets better. i got 2 tix frm Miss G teh (hoping sayang will go with me =P). Kewl! Power! Awesome! I kinda love theater works.
Well into the evening, our break dance session so damn cool. The gang was so like groovin to Billy Jean of MJ. I did some headstan, Baby freeze, baby freeze switch, chair, 7, almost did flare and wind mill. Kewl! hahha! Did some nite studying. Kool stuff. I learned alot dudes. I am catching up real quick. Wahhaha!
Gotta slp... Too damn tired! Tmr will be the most bummpy day... kinda have not settle my lit file! Sure kill by Gina teh.
Well, i start the day in a bloody wrong way. Got too mant thoughts in my mind that kinda LAME! (hafiz pe) ahhaha... Then the day just gets better. i got 2 tix frm Miss G teh (hoping sayang will go with me =P). Kewl! Power! Awesome! I kinda love theater works.
Well into the evening, our break dance session so damn cool. The gang was so like groovin to Billy Jean of MJ. I did some headstan, Baby freeze, baby freeze switch, chair, 7, almost did flare and wind mill. Kewl! hahha! Did some nite studying. Kool stuff. I learned alot dudes. I am catching up real quick. Wahhaha!
Gotta slp... Too damn tired! Tmr will be the most bummpy day... kinda have not settle my lit file! Sure kill by Gina teh.
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
Some crap...
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Haiz, i am so bloody bored.. No HP (bill sky rocket, like i planned. Kinda to piss my dad off for pissing me off. Backfired though. HAHAHHA)... Woah! I just recieved an sms but... the damn phone is infront of my dad.. crapz... Who cares! Ceh!..
Well, i spend the whole night ydea to do some self study. Guess what! I finally understood Elasticity! Wee! =P I still got a stack of essays to finish. What a pain. Its a lame way to start my 1st year in MI. Crapz. I got my gtarget grades for my CA, prelim and Promos.
Eng Lit: D
Hist : C
Econ : D
Malay : C5
G.p : c5
If i would get lower then this i'll go bye2 MI and the letter of direct admission will be send to poly(s). Boy, i am a boy with crazy ideas. I got crap stuffs to do now. Like econs to revies. W333! Ta.
Haiz, i am so bloody bored.. No HP (bill sky rocket, like i planned. Kinda to piss my dad off for pissing me off. Backfired though. HAHAHHA)... Woah! I just recieved an sms but... the damn phone is infront of my dad.. crapz... Who cares! Ceh!..
Well, i spend the whole night ydea to do some self study. Guess what! I finally understood Elasticity! Wee! =P I still got a stack of essays to finish. What a pain. Its a lame way to start my 1st year in MI. Crapz. I got my gtarget grades for my CA, prelim and Promos.
Eng Lit: D
Hist : C
Econ : D
Malay : C5
G.p : c5
If i would get lower then this i'll go bye2 MI and the letter of direct admission will be send to poly(s). Boy, i am a boy with crazy ideas. I got crap stuffs to do now. Like econs to revies. W333! Ta.
Monday, July 19, 2004
Mornin routine
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
~yawn~ Power to the yawn! Haiz, i woke up at 5.30! Then, "Ah Fiz! Pergi mandi! Bagun sekarang! Nanti Lambat lagi!" Haiz, talk about morning routine. Today WILL be a bloody boring day. I gotta spend the whole day 'haunting' my econs teacher *evil grin*. Wahaha! Anyway, i will try to update again later if i get the chance to. I gotta hit the showers. Ta.
~yawn~ Power to the yawn! Haiz, i woke up at 5.30! Then, "Ah Fiz! Pergi mandi! Bagun sekarang! Nanti Lambat lagi!" Haiz, talk about morning routine. Today WILL be a bloody boring day. I gotta spend the whole day 'haunting' my econs teacher *evil grin*. Wahaha! Anyway, i will try to update again later if i get the chance to. I gotta hit the showers. Ta.
Friday, July 16, 2004
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Like this like that... Argh! I hate this damned thingy way of conversation. Shit. Worst still its LMT (Lee Mee Ting) conversing this way. Damn crap. Trying not to hate myself for getting low grades until i myself want to weep. F*ck! Tomorrow is the bloody 'Meet the parents day'. I am so gonna get screwed by LMT. Crap talk from her, i expect absolute insult to my mode conscience.
Anyway, i am having a great relationship with Hannah. But, i have to spend more time getting my ass clear of Miss Watee's killing range. She was like on fire when she got the team's results. It was like even Nordeen was afraid to end the office. Hahah. Lame. Back to me and hannah, I have to study till late at skool. I really do want to spend more time with her, but i have to put my concentration to my studies for 2 months until the finals. I have to work hard now. Very Hard. Haiz...
End
Like this like that... Argh! I hate this damned thingy way of conversation. Shit. Worst still its LMT (Lee Mee Ting) conversing this way. Damn crap. Trying not to hate myself for getting low grades until i myself want to weep. F*ck! Tomorrow is the bloody 'Meet the parents day'. I am so gonna get screwed by LMT. Crap talk from her, i expect absolute insult to my mode conscience.
Anyway, i am having a great relationship with Hannah. But, i have to spend more time getting my ass clear of Miss Watee's killing range. She was like on fire when she got the team's results. It was like even Nordeen was afraid to end the office. Hahah. Lame. Back to me and hannah, I have to study till late at skool. I really do want to spend more time with her, but i have to put my concentration to my studies for 2 months until the finals. I have to work hard now. Very Hard. Haiz...
End
Thursday, July 15, 2004
Late update...
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Ah. Finally i can update my bloggy after a long term of not switching on my com. I am fine, but my ass hurts from todae's hockey training. Damn! And this fridae theres another. F*ck! I hate trainings which are slow and tiring. I prefer fast pace training. Its a good oppourtunity to work on my stamina and pushing the limits of my body, if there is such trainings. Well, i have to put more effort on my studies. CA is coming. Argh! Load of work is increasing. Damn... an assured death warrant. i got the whole saturday morning till afternoon to catch up. In the evening, catch with sayang. Miz her much. =P though i do fetch from skool almost everyday. hahha. A lamer arent i?. yep. Literature Paper 1 tutorials are still not done yet, i do not even understand the text. The Teacher is not even teaching us but showering us of what she thinks about the playwrite instead of us understanding the text. shitoo! haha
K LAH! i wana go to sleep. ~yawn~ tata!
Ah. Finally i can update my bloggy after a long term of not switching on my com. I am fine, but my ass hurts from todae's hockey training. Damn! And this fridae theres another. F*ck! I hate trainings which are slow and tiring. I prefer fast pace training. Its a good oppourtunity to work on my stamina and pushing the limits of my body, if there is such trainings. Well, i have to put more effort on my studies. CA is coming. Argh! Load of work is increasing. Damn... an assured death warrant. i got the whole saturday morning till afternoon to catch up. In the evening, catch with sayang. Miz her much. =P though i do fetch from skool almost everyday. hahha. A lamer arent i?. yep. Literature Paper 1 tutorials are still not done yet, i do not even understand the text. The Teacher is not even teaching us but showering us of what she thinks about the playwrite instead of us understanding the text. shitoo! haha
K LAH! i wana go to sleep. ~yawn~ tata!
Saturday, July 10, 2004
From East Coast park...
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Yesterdae, i spend most of the day outside. Skool for one thing, East Coast park the other. I went to East Coast Park just to release my tension of failing my exams to the beach and just enjoying the day with Sayang. Kinda relaxing though. I have made up my mine of hockey. Made a expectation of a double C 'a level' subjects.
Btw, i got home at bloody 0045. So i cant update my bloggy =P. I send hannah home and then found out that the buses had stopped running for the day. I sat down and thought that i have to walk home. But! I took the gamble of using my credit card. then. Yea! i got home. Hoppin on the taxi and Aiho Silver Away! So, i have underestimated the power of plastic =P. ~yawn~ I gotta continue my nap or sleep or watever you call it. Chao!
Yesterdae, i spend most of the day outside. Skool for one thing, East Coast park the other. I went to East Coast Park just to release my tension of failing my exams to the beach and just enjoying the day with Sayang. Kinda relaxing though. I have made up my mine of hockey. Made a expectation of a double C 'a level' subjects.
Btw, i got home at bloody 0045. So i cant update my bloggy =P. I send hannah home and then found out that the buses had stopped running for the day. I sat down and thought that i have to walk home. But! I took the gamble of using my credit card. then. Yea! i got home. Hoppin on the taxi and Aiho Silver Away! So, i have underestimated the power of plastic =P. ~yawn~ I gotta continue my nap or sleep or watever you call it. Chao!
Thursday, July 08, 2004
Another fall
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
I have successfully flunk all my papers. Doubts about my sstudy methods. Angry? Yes. The whole dae todae i tried to smile. i could even remember how many times i smiled, 11 times. All i could do was frown. Nothing else.
I have successfully flunk all my papers. Doubts about my sstudy methods. Angry? Yes. The whole dae todae i tried to smile. i could even remember how many times i smiled, 11 times. All i could do was frown. Nothing else.
Morning Entry...
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
OOKKKAAYY.. its around 6 in the bloody morning. My body is aching and feelin worried. Worst facts are these, once i am worried, i cant do anything else but worry and worry till the cow comes home. I am now worried about sayang, she said she has a headache and tummyache ydae. And the day before she had fever. Worried? yes!
Another thing which has been bothering me, People who know me doesnt know my name!! What the hell.. hell... hell..!! MY name is HAFIZ HASNOL. I am a dork who is currently skooling in MI. My couzin and close friends call me FALCAO. Reason: Sec 3 i played at my peek and earned the name. How: I have no idea.
Need to shower, cya ya folks laterz... Ta
OOKKKAAYY.. its around 6 in the bloody morning. My body is aching and feelin worried. Worst facts are these, once i am worried, i cant do anything else but worry and worry till the cow comes home. I am now worried about sayang, she said she has a headache and tummyache ydae. And the day before she had fever. Worried? yes!
Another thing which has been bothering me, People who know me doesnt know my name!! What the hell.. hell... hell..!! MY name is HAFIZ HASNOL. I am a dork who is currently skooling in MI. My couzin and close friends call me FALCAO. Reason: Sec 3 i played at my peek and earned the name. How: I have no idea.
Need to shower, cya ya folks laterz... Ta
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
Crappy comments...
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Yozzy... I just got home, yeas ah! hehe. Well i just got off the phone from talkin to sayang. A Long talk. I got a bloody tiring day at skool, physical conditioning. Curcuit of 4, 2 laps of up hill running and exercise (1st lap, Push Ups: 30, 2nd, Sit ups: 30, 3rd, scisors jump: 15, 4th, Star jump: 15) Legs were wobbly after that. Still we had to run 1.6km "cooling down". WTH!!! Lessons, well.. i cant even remember what went on...
At home infront, sayang said something abt peeps commenting on pic on my bloggy and contents I wonder how they felt. Anyways, i dont know any persons that are not around my circle of friends. Bcoz, I prefer to keep to those i currently know in skool. Funny thing is, i dont even know the "pretiest gal" in skool. They kept say her name and i just go "huh? who the hell is that?". crappy stuff.
Argh...
Yozzy... I just got home, yeas ah! hehe. Well i just got off the phone from talkin to sayang. A Long talk. I got a bloody tiring day at skool, physical conditioning. Curcuit of 4, 2 laps of up hill running and exercise (1st lap, Push Ups: 30, 2nd, Sit ups: 30, 3rd, scisors jump: 15, 4th, Star jump: 15) Legs were wobbly after that. Still we had to run 1.6km "cooling down". WTH!!! Lessons, well.. i cant even remember what went on...
At home infront, sayang said something abt peeps commenting on pic on my bloggy and contents I wonder how they felt. Anyways, i dont know any persons that are not around my circle of friends. Bcoz, I prefer to keep to those i currently know in skool. Funny thing is, i dont even know the "pretiest gal" in skool. They kept say her name and i just go "huh? who the hell is that?". crappy stuff.
Argh...
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