-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Bored
Bored bored bored bored!!!!! argh! Fuckin hell!! I wana get out and do something. Work maybe! Who cares! I put so much effort to do some things.. And it just get bumped away that easily. ARGH!! big Giveup on my fucking head. I wana go out but lack the funds to do so.. lack of will.. lack of companion.. for short i feel so freaking lonely and made worst by boredom... i got 2 projects and 1 miserable computer by my siide. it cant get any worst? Yes it does! I have a returning headache! Fuckin hell!
Argh!!! i need a break at sentosa!! its gonna happen and i dun want anything to get in my way! even the rain *waves fist at the sky!
Now.. i am goin to town! ergh! no one can stop me!!! *crappy headache...
then again... *groan..
haiz.. ta!
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
A date with a touch of fever
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
A date with a touch of fever
Yesterday was so nice going out with dearie. We got ourselves couple rings from Yellow at West mall. Its a plain ring but has our name engraved on it, 'HannaHafiz' on the top of the ring and '13.06.04' in the inside. Cool eh? hehe. Then we went to watch shark tale. The show was kinda thin on the story side but crap jokes and humour covered it up. But, i dont recomend anyone to watch it unless you got 7 bucks to waste. KekeKE...
Anyway, i was supposed go to Tornadoes 7s but i am not healthy enough. I had fever and not very lasting in walking ard during the date. So it'll be alot worst if i am going to run around like a chicken without a head. Today, i slept like a log and burning with a fever at my all time high of 42c. wow. hahha. aite... tats all folks
Ta!
A date with a touch of fever
Yesterday was so nice going out with dearie. We got ourselves couple rings from Yellow at West mall. Its a plain ring but has our name engraved on it, 'HannaHafiz' on the top of the ring and '13.06.04' in the inside. Cool eh? hehe. Then we went to watch shark tale. The show was kinda thin on the story side but crap jokes and humour covered it up. But, i dont recomend anyone to watch it unless you got 7 bucks to waste. KekeKE...
Anyway, i was supposed go to Tornadoes 7s but i am not healthy enough. I had fever and not very lasting in walking ard during the date. So it'll be alot worst if i am going to run around like a chicken without a head. Today, i slept like a log and burning with a fever at my all time high of 42c. wow. hahha. aite... tats all folks
Ta!
Thursday, November 11, 2004
So who wants to argue with this dude? the future for him will be somewhat different. Of course, THE COM IS WAY FUKIN SMALLER NOW THEN YOUR PREDICTION! But somehow it looks cute.
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Monday, November 08, 2004
Birthdays...
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Birthdays...
2 reasons
I often wonder what's the big fuss about birthdays. Is it a day which other celebrate your coming of age? Or a mere cover up that you are becoming old? Heck. I don't really know the legend behind it. I am such a sad ass. Anyway, I got a really bad experience 3 years ago. It isn't the flour and eggs but the part where by I broke up with my ex for another guy. From then on, I swore that on 14/Nov I will not take any smiles or anything that represents happiness.
The another reason is that it shows that I am still alive in my ever full bullcrap life. The day I come into existence. The day when I am swore as a human being to put up with life's crap. I hate set backs. I hate my past break ups. I hate everything that creates me. A mere superfluous life. Bleah. My very bleak outlook in life.
Lame eh? Yea, I know. I just against my birthday being celebrated. Unless someone I love so dear give me a reason to move forward. For 3 belady years i haven't gotten any gifts or wishes. (success!) And looking forward to spending that day in silence. Heck. Its on hari raya. The more i am going to hate my birthday.
*i still see no reason to celebrate.
Note: Hannah is still sick. I am still worried sick. My silent prayer for her health.
Birthdays...
2 reasons
I often wonder what's the big fuss about birthdays. Is it a day which other celebrate your coming of age? Or a mere cover up that you are becoming old? Heck. I don't really know the legend behind it. I am such a sad ass. Anyway, I got a really bad experience 3 years ago. It isn't the flour and eggs but the part where by I broke up with my ex for another guy. From then on, I swore that on 14/Nov I will not take any smiles or anything that represents happiness.
The another reason is that it shows that I am still alive in my ever full bullcrap life. The day I come into existence. The day when I am swore as a human being to put up with life's crap. I hate set backs. I hate my past break ups. I hate everything that creates me. A mere superfluous life. Bleah. My very bleak outlook in life.
Lame eh? Yea, I know. I just against my birthday being celebrated. Unless someone I love so dear give me a reason to move forward. For 3 belady years i haven't gotten any gifts or wishes. (success!) And looking forward to spending that day in silence. Heck. Its on hari raya. The more i am going to hate my birthday.
*i still see no reason to celebrate.
Note: Hannah is still sick. I am still worried sick. My silent prayer for her health.
Alone.. again
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Alone.. again
I feel so lonely.
well, thats all. one line which says everything. Well, almost.
Peepz, am i that lame and irritating?
Thats the question that have been stuck in my mind for a long time.
Until yesterday i got out of this 'trance' to start thinking.
I am just so tired.
For making futile efforts that dosent change my position in my family.
Trying too much to do what i believe in, that it becomes old.
well, i am really emo today because of a series of events which started since the morning. I can see some people find me that irritating. It wasnt obvious but i felt it. I need to be alone. To think about myself. And about my actions.
Alone.. again
I feel so lonely.
well, thats all. one line which says everything. Well, almost.
Peepz, am i that lame and irritating?
Thats the question that have been stuck in my mind for a long time.
Until yesterday i got out of this 'trance' to start thinking.
I am just so tired.
For making futile efforts that dosent change my position in my family.
Trying too much to do what i believe in, that it becomes old.
well, i am really emo today because of a series of events which started since the morning. I can see some people find me that irritating. It wasnt obvious but i felt it. I need to be alone. To think about myself. And about my actions.
Thursday, November 04, 2004
Routine.. with a setback..
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Routine.. with a setback..
Almost everything todae is routine... got to skool.. went through the oral P of the pre-u2s.. it rained...
Y isnt it everything.. coz hannah is sick.. very hgh fever and yet i go around town with her... i feel soo agry at myself for doing so.. ERGH!! i shld just get her home safely and let her rest.. =( haiz.. Hannah please get well soon! And please forgive me...
Routine.. with a setback..
Almost everything todae is routine... got to skool.. went through the oral P of the pre-u2s.. it rained...
Y isnt it everything.. coz hannah is sick.. very hgh fever and yet i go around town with her... i feel soo agry at myself for doing so.. ERGH!! i shld just get her home safely and let her rest.. =( haiz.. Hannah please get well soon! And please forgive me...
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Relive the Project-G
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Re-live the Project-G
Alrighty, scripts will undergo revamp. Characters will also go a total change. I am all fine will new ideas. Fusing our basic concepts and other anime concepts (gundam and such) to create our own. I am now having my school break and in a not so busy period to continue. Site revamp with a use of coldfusion and dreamweaver. All mecha and characters will through a slight change. I am still holding on to the first concepts mecha and characters. I think we sholuld meet next week Zhao.
Aitey! For those who didnt know me at that point of time where by almost everybody in my school (hong kah sec) knows about the existance of Guardian Hall. Its quite distracting and plus the our 2 major exam, the Project was halt to a standstill. Now, with no more infrastructure from the previous site as its gone with my other hdd. I have redo site entry and comic page itself. Ouch.
This idea came about during the musical 'shine' when the idea poped up. Hairul, me and zhao wei though of the idea. Kinda fun. hehe anyway. Maybe i will update on the happenings of the site restart. ta!
Re-live the Project-G
Alrighty, scripts will undergo revamp. Characters will also go a total change. I am all fine will new ideas. Fusing our basic concepts and other anime concepts (gundam and such) to create our own. I am now having my school break and in a not so busy period to continue. Site revamp with a use of coldfusion and dreamweaver. All mecha and characters will through a slight change. I am still holding on to the first concepts mecha and characters. I think we sholuld meet next week Zhao.
Aitey! For those who didnt know me at that point of time where by almost everybody in my school (hong kah sec) knows about the existance of Guardian Hall. Its quite distracting and plus the our 2 major exam, the Project was halt to a standstill. Now, with no more infrastructure from the previous site as its gone with my other hdd. I have redo site entry and comic page itself. Ouch.
This idea came about during the musical 'shine' when the idea poped up. Hairul, me and zhao wei though of the idea. Kinda fun. hehe anyway. Maybe i will update on the happenings of the site restart. ta!
Monday, November 01, 2004
Sadness from within
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Sadness from within
Azhari, i dont know if you're going to read this but i'll just put it up anyway. I felt really sad that you didnt make it to year 2. I was all teary eyed just now. Kinda embarressing. Its a big loss for me as i have lost my best dude in skool. My lame partner by my side. its goin to be very quiet as i got no one to really talk all my thoughts out with and share my lameness with. i want to spend your official last 2 days in school breaking around. I am really goin to miss those times and fun we have. Those ups and down we went through. I will pray for you to make it in life. =]
Anyway, i got through to the next round of school. Which is year 2. I don't really deserve this. on my part, i am the drop dead and woke smiling lazy bugger. My freakin attitude towards to myself is crap. So, i personally dont deserve it. Azhari does more than me. he studied harder than me. More consistant of doin homeworks and being in school. i just feel so low now.
Ta!
Sadness from within
Azhari, i dont know if you're going to read this but i'll just put it up anyway. I felt really sad that you didnt make it to year 2. I was all teary eyed just now. Kinda embarressing. Its a big loss for me as i have lost my best dude in skool. My lame partner by my side. its goin to be very quiet as i got no one to really talk all my thoughts out with and share my lameness with. i want to spend your official last 2 days in school breaking around. I am really goin to miss those times and fun we have. Those ups and down we went through. I will pray for you to make it in life. =]
Anyway, i got through to the next round of school. Which is year 2. I don't really deserve this. on my part, i am the drop dead and woke smiling lazy bugger. My freakin attitude towards to myself is crap. So, i personally dont deserve it. Azhari does more than me. he studied harder than me. More consistant of doin homeworks and being in school. i just feel so low now.
Ta!
Saturday, October 30, 2004
Sometimes.. i could be happy too!
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Now playin: Home Grown - Kiss me, Diss me
Sometimes.. i could be happy too!
Well, yesterday was kinda of fun walking around and looking around for stuffs around geylang. Before that, our group went to the resturant to eat or rather breakfast. We sat at this 2 round table and ordered food. That was about 6++ BUT mr hafreez and Mao when to the dendeng shop and some extra grubsm hahha... The gals bought claypot mee, hong kong seafood mee and crispy noodle. The guy bought dishes, YumYum! hahah! We got sweet and sour chicken and fish, fried beef in oyster sauce and kang kong sambal with a big bowl of rice. Fooh! power man! But my apple juice taste kinda awkward.. eEww! All brown and stuff. eeww! Then we head to a mosque, me, mau, azhari, aidil and freeze went to pray. After which we walk to the bazaar. On the way there... 2 side of the road with 2 different scenes of the red district.. haha. Kinda kute, 4 guys and a girl on one side and 1 guy with five girls on the other. It was dam hilarious when someone highlighted the word redlight instinct.. ahahha!!
We made it to the bazaar and waited for heirre who was apperently lost and got us really worried. haiz.. We walk aroud, see this and that. We bumped into Faezah on the road division on, rusdyi at Joo Chiat, Razi too and hariani..Small world eh? ;) Before that, some ppl got henna art onto their hainds and FORGOT that there is school on monday, worst still is PE. HhahHA lucks you all!! kekek! After which we headed HOME!!! yea! oh yea, i damn stoned throughout the whole train ride. Too drained for all the walking and eatin.. kekek..
Happy? yea! I am even happier when Hannah is around with me. ^.^ She just makes me soo bright and all chearie. Now she is kinda in a bz studying period for the Re-test. Anyway, STUDY HARD HONEY! I WILL BE ROOTING FOR YA ALL THE WAY!! ehhe..
Anyway, i feel Sentosa! as in i really wana go and swim, tan, sleep and return home the next day. yup yup! i really want to do that again, kinda fun! hahha.. And i hope nov 29 to nov 30 wont rain! Thats all though..
Aite! I wana slack around! tata!
Now playin: Home Grown - Kiss me, Diss me
Sometimes.. i could be happy too!
Well, yesterday was kinda of fun walking around and looking around for stuffs around geylang. Before that, our group went to the resturant to eat or rather breakfast. We sat at this 2 round table and ordered food. That was about 6++ BUT mr hafreez and Mao when to the dendeng shop and some extra grubsm hahha... The gals bought claypot mee, hong kong seafood mee and crispy noodle. The guy bought dishes, YumYum! hahah! We got sweet and sour chicken and fish, fried beef in oyster sauce and kang kong sambal with a big bowl of rice. Fooh! power man! But my apple juice taste kinda awkward.. eEww! All brown and stuff. eeww! Then we head to a mosque, me, mau, azhari, aidil and freeze went to pray. After which we walk to the bazaar. On the way there... 2 side of the road with 2 different scenes of the red district.. haha. Kinda kute, 4 guys and a girl on one side and 1 guy with five girls on the other. It was dam hilarious when someone highlighted the word redlight instinct.. ahahha!!
We made it to the bazaar and waited for heirre who was apperently lost and got us really worried. haiz.. We walk aroud, see this and that. We bumped into Faezah on the road division on, rusdyi at Joo Chiat, Razi too and hariani..Small world eh? ;) Before that, some ppl got henna art onto their hainds and FORGOT that there is school on monday, worst still is PE. HhahHA lucks you all!! kekek! After which we headed HOME!!! yea! oh yea, i damn stoned throughout the whole train ride. Too drained for all the walking and eatin.. kekek..
Happy? yea! I am even happier when Hannah is around with me. ^.^ She just makes me soo bright and all chearie. Now she is kinda in a bz studying period for the Re-test. Anyway, STUDY HARD HONEY! I WILL BE ROOTING FOR YA ALL THE WAY!! ehhe..
Anyway, i feel Sentosa! as in i really wana go and swim, tan, sleep and return home the next day. yup yup! i really want to do that again, kinda fun! hahha.. And i hope nov 29 to nov 30 wont rain! Thats all though..
Aite! I wana slack around! tata!
Friday, October 29, 2004
Lame day.. and stuffs...
-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
crappy.. I have called my dad a hypocrite!! Yea! =.=;.. so stupid of me.. but who cares.. he doesnt.. clearly.. 1st of all, the hp line is mine and he made a promise that he will pay for what ever and no matter the cost is, guess what, he went back on his word.. usually my bill will be about 30++ to 40++.. be an ass like he is, he took my card away.. said it was too high.. yea i know, i did it on purpose to know if he is true to his word.. looks like he isnt.. haiz.. Hypocritcal father.. he does shit worst about money.. spend it on leisure then on necessities.. talk about responsibility of keepin the family afloat.. arse.. i am only given 5 bucks a day to last me till night time if i were to study out.. ah, so how to save? i asked him to HELP me by advising my how to save.. he'll go, "study at home!".. what the heLL!! if i would study at home, he will crap and interupt me thus loosing concentration resulting in aftermath of blurness of what i read.. still, its hard to study outside as he will it a f*ckin difficult one... he will pick a fight for no reason!! crap! the only thing i can do after is go out and stare at nothing coolin my temper down.. So why ask me to study when he doesnt do his part of the bargain.. i know you will say i am crap, i cant let stupid problems get away that easily.. why i did what i did? too prove myself.. MYSELF though i know i will suffer... i am me and i will do what i think is rite but no one else does not.. am i really turning into my dad? I dunno.. My self thoughts says so..
Family
I dun believe that in my family anymore... no one wants to listen to my dreams, goals, what i want to achieve, events happen in my life and my heart's desires... i envy my friends who have parents who really do what it takes to let their child achieve their dreams.. Though i am fortunate to live in this family, i feel that they are not appreciating me.. no evn ONE BIT! So sue me..i did open myself up to them but they just treat it as if i am just a contempted kid.. i need money for this school thingy.. they will go no money.. the next day, new dvds.. ERRGH! Need money for new clothes.. no money.. said to me 'wait till abah's bonus'.. after bonus, more new electrical crap, at that time was a new laptop (2002).. then again twice this year.. i asked for money again for new clothes, they got no money (again).. dad bought a new car.. his new clothes... moms got lotsa clothes, sis too.. well me, i got dad's oversized-lame-lookin-clothes.. he did used them and he pass to me, too small for him =S.. haiz.. looks like i will have a bumpy ride ahead after the results..
HEck.. not all down yet still more to come.. Gotta crap ard now.. Ta!
crappy.. I have called my dad a hypocrite!! Yea! =.=;.. so stupid of me.. but who cares.. he doesnt.. clearly.. 1st of all, the hp line is mine and he made a promise that he will pay for what ever and no matter the cost is, guess what, he went back on his word.. usually my bill will be about 30++ to 40++.. be an ass like he is, he took my card away.. said it was too high.. yea i know, i did it on purpose to know if he is true to his word.. looks like he isnt.. haiz.. Hypocritcal father.. he does shit worst about money.. spend it on leisure then on necessities.. talk about responsibility of keepin the family afloat.. arse.. i am only given 5 bucks a day to last me till night time if i were to study out.. ah, so how to save? i asked him to HELP me by advising my how to save.. he'll go, "study at home!".. what the heLL!! if i would study at home, he will crap and interupt me thus loosing concentration resulting in aftermath of blurness of what i read.. still, its hard to study outside as he will it a f*ckin difficult one... he will pick a fight for no reason!! crap! the only thing i can do after is go out and stare at nothing coolin my temper down.. So why ask me to study when he doesnt do his part of the bargain.. i know you will say i am crap, i cant let stupid problems get away that easily.. why i did what i did? too prove myself.. MYSELF though i know i will suffer... i am me and i will do what i think is rite but no one else does not.. am i really turning into my dad? I dunno.. My self thoughts says so..
Family
I dun believe that in my family anymore... no one wants to listen to my dreams, goals, what i want to achieve, events happen in my life and my heart's desires... i envy my friends who have parents who really do what it takes to let their child achieve their dreams.. Though i am fortunate to live in this family, i feel that they are not appreciating me.. no evn ONE BIT! So sue me..i did open myself up to them but they just treat it as if i am just a contempted kid.. i need money for this school thingy.. they will go no money.. the next day, new dvds.. ERRGH! Need money for new clothes.. no money.. said to me 'wait till abah's bonus'.. after bonus, more new electrical crap, at that time was a new laptop (2002).. then again twice this year.. i asked for money again for new clothes, they got no money (again).. dad bought a new car.. his new clothes... moms got lotsa clothes, sis too.. well me, i got dad's oversized-lame-lookin-clothes.. he did used them and he pass to me, too small for him =S.. haiz.. looks like i will have a bumpy ride ahead after the results..
HEck.. not all down yet still more to come.. Gotta crap ard now.. Ta!
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